Tom Sandoval, 41, had an “intense” second in the course of the October 16 episode of Particular Forces: World’s Hardest Take a look at on FOX. The Vanderpump Guidelines star was left sobbing in an outhouse after a problem on the TV competitors (watch the VIDEO HERE) and recalling his affair with Rachel “Raquel” Leviss. “Dude, that was so intense, man,” he stated to his co-star, Bode Miller.

The 41-year-old went on to inform his co-star how “defeated” he felt amid that day’s problem. “I’m laughing and crying at the same time while trying to s***,” he stated. “I felt so defeated out there.” Bode responded by making an attempt to console Tom after the problem. “That moment you just had is the real deal because you’re f****** hammering,” he stated. Tom then thanked him and informed Bode that it meant “a lot” to him to say these phrases.

Elsewhere within the episode, Tom opened up about his bombshell affair together with his former VPR co-star. When he spoke about it together with his different Particular Forces castmates, the Bravo character obtained candid about his break up from Ariana Madix. Tom even went so far as to name the affair a “a pretty juicy f****** scandal.” When one of many castmates requested who Ariana was, the Schwartz & Sandy’s co-founder didn’t hesitate to recall the dishonest scandal. “I had an affair, and it just blew up,” Tom defined. “People were messaging me paragraphs of just like vicious, like, so visceral, like, hatred.”

When Erin Jackson requested Tom why the affair grew to become such a web based sensation, he was left in disbelief.  “I honestly don’t know,” he quipped. “I’m a f****** stupid reality star. Like, come on man.” Throughout a confessional, Tom additionally revealed that now the vast majority of Bravo followers see him a “creeper” after the affair. “Before this whole scandal, I would meet people who had probably seen me on Vanderpump Rules, and they’d be like, ‘Oh my gosh, he’s so cool.’ And then now, people think I’m a complete narcissist, creeper vibes,” he stated.

He then confessed that he desires to “punish” himself for what occurred earlier this 12 months. “I’m definitely not here to run away. I want to punish myself. I think I deserve it,” Tom stated. After Mark ‘Billy’ Billingham informed Tom that his efficiency that day was “bad,” Tom practically broke down in tears as soon as extra recalling the affair (watch right here). “I’ve had a hell of a past, like, three months,” Tom stated combating again tears. “I had, like, an affair with another woman. She’s also on the show.” He referred to as the dishonest scandal a “perfect storm” and admitted that his publicist had “never seen anything like it.”

Extra so, Tom famous that he felt it was “stupid” to see his affair on networks like CNN. “Seeing people I’ve been friends with for well over a decade just turn on me,” he went on. “It was just so exhausting.” Billy then requested Tom to cease taking part in the “victim” as a result of he “created” the mayhem. Jason Fox additionally grilled Tom and informed him that he needs to be “owning” his errors. Tom concluded the extraordinary second by admitting that he “handled” the affair “like a coward” and accepted Jason’s problem to go ahead and stay with “integrity.”