Britney Spears is giving perception into her life within the memoir The Lady in Me and making some stunning revelations. The pop star is opening up about what actually occurred throughout her closely criticized 2007 MTV VMAs efficiency and why she didn’t like her time judging on The X-Issue USA.

Spears carried out “Gimme More” in Las Vegas on the VMAs and was panned by viewers at dwelling because it appeared the star was fully out of it. A number of years in the past a video of her rehearsal leaked on-line the place Spears carried out her musical quantity flawlessly in distinction to the dwell efficiency. Now Spears is revealing she had an ungainly encounter together with her ex Justin Timberlake that affected her emotionally.

“It had been a while since I’d seen him. Everything was going great in his world. He was at the top of his game in every way, and he had a lot of swagger. I was having a panic attack. I hadn’t rehearsed enough. I hated the way I looked. I knew it was going to be bad,” Spears wrote in her memoir, in accordance with the Each day Mail.

Spears was criticized for her musical efficiency alongside her look as her hair extensions had been clearly seen.

“There was a problem with my costume and with my hair extensions. I hadn’t slept the night before. I was dizzy. It was less than a year since I’d had my second baby in two years but everyone was acting like my not having six-pack abs was offensive,” she wrote. “I couldn’t believe I was going to have to go out onstage feeling the way I felt. I went out there and did the best I could at that moment in time, which — yes, granted — was far from my best at other times. I could see myself on video throughout the auditorium while I performed; it was like looking at myself in a fun-house mirror.”

The “Kill the Lights” singer would go on to turn out to be a decide on the second season of The X-Issue alongside producer L.A. Reid, Demi Lovato and Simon Cowell. Spears wrote in her e-book that she didn’t benefit from the expertise in the course of the expertise competitors.

“I think a lot of people are really professional on TV, like Christina Aguilera and Gwen Stefani. When the camera’s on them, they thrive. And that’s great. I used to be able to do that when I was younger, but again, I feel like I age backwards when I’m afraid,” Spears mentioned. “And so I got to where I was very, very nervous if I knew I had to be on air, and I didn’t like being nervous all day long… If you’ve got me a cute cameo on a fun TV show where I’m in and out in a day that’s one thing, but to act skeptical for eight straight hours while judging on TV? Uh, no thank you. I absolutely hated it.”